We're home from vacation...
D and I got home from Vegas and Utah late last night. Our flight took longer than expected b/c of those bad storms in the Mid-West. We had to fly down to Arkansas to get around them.
We had lots of fun on our trip. I'll go into the details and post some pictures later.
In my last post, I mentioned how life had been kinda crazy lately. Here's a picture of why.
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I had no clue that I was pregnant. My cycles had been messed up since late last year so I didn't think much about not getting my period. I was exhausted but I felt like my depression was getting worse so I just figured that was the reason. Then I started feeling a little nauseous but there was a stomach bug going around. I finally took a pregnancy test "just in case" even though I didn't think I really was and it was positive. After taking 3 more, I finally believed the results.
After running a gamut of feelings, I ended up losing the baby right before we left for Vegas. I'm sad but there is a huge feeling of relief also. D and I aren't ready to be parents at all. I was on the pill so this definitely wasn't planned. But I still lost something that was part D and I and it hurts. It does give me some hope for the future. I was afraid that I wasn't ever going to be able to have children. Fertitily problems run in the family. At least I know that I am able to get pregnant and someday I will have a little bundle of joy.
We had lots of fun on our trip. I'll go into the details and post some pictures later.
In my last post, I mentioned how life had been kinda crazy lately. Here's a picture of why.
Ready?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
I had no clue that I was pregnant. My cycles had been messed up since late last year so I didn't think much about not getting my period. I was exhausted but I felt like my depression was getting worse so I just figured that was the reason. Then I started feeling a little nauseous but there was a stomach bug going around. I finally took a pregnancy test "just in case" even though I didn't think I really was and it was positive. After taking 3 more, I finally believed the results.
After running a gamut of feelings, I ended up losing the baby right before we left for Vegas. I'm sad but there is a huge feeling of relief also. D and I aren't ready to be parents at all. I was on the pill so this definitely wasn't planned. But I still lost something that was part D and I and it hurts. It does give me some hope for the future. I was afraid that I wasn't ever going to be able to have children. Fertitily problems run in the family. At least I know that I am able to get pregnant and someday I will have a little bundle of joy.
posted by J. at 4:45 PM
3 Comments:
aww
i'm sorry...
even though you werent ready...
that is tough...
but you are right, at least you know that someday, when you are ready ...
and like u said , you werent ready- so i'm sure the pills didnt help, and u werent taking all of your vitamins, etc....you'll have a better prepared "environment" for one later , when u are ready :)
ug, i'm 4 days late and HOPING for a + test...
i dotn want to take one because of the fact that i'll cry if it is neg...
so, we'll see
~jes
i'm sorry. ready or not, it's still something that's tough to go through. seems like you've got a very positive outlook on it though. (((HUGS))) to you.
(((HUGS)))
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